It might be time to admit that I bit off way more than I can chew this month.
For some reason I thought that the new year meant I had new and improve super powers. I thought it meant I could take on the world… and then some without slipping up, breaking down, or giving in.
However, I think I might have finally cracked under the pressure – as I write to you from my heated bed with a load of clean laundry staring at me, unfolded in it’s basket.
Although, I’m not 100% sure that I am ready to admit defeat yet, but I will admit that I am taking a mental health afternoon where I am hiding in my bed, with Netflix blaring through my tv and I am trying my damn hardest not to feel guilty about it.
And when I say afternoon, what I really mean is a few hours between other obligations.
Considering this morning I was at my barn for 8:30 a.m. in order to make sure my horse is always feeling 110% even though I can’t remember the last time I saw my own human chiropractor.
And after that I rushed to school in order to make a deadline on a story that I completed start to finish in under 24 hours – after 3 other stories fell through on me since Tuesday.
I’ve also somehow managed to…
- Do dishes
- Clean my entire kitchen
- Collect the garbage and get it ready for take out tonight
- Did 1 load of laundry (hence the clean yet unfolded laundry that is nagging me silently)
- And started another load of laundry
And now I am sitting in my bed.
For a few minutes before I fold my load of laundry, switch the laundry that is currently in the washer and then go to work for the 4th shift out of my 13th shift in a row streak.
Thinking about it from my heated bed this rainy afternoon I think I might have had a mental break down when I planned this month. In fact, I don’t think I was thinking at all when I took on everything I did.
School, work every single night of the week, a horse to ride and train, work on occasional weekends, events for school, work on Friday mornings as well as Friday nights, a social life to semi-maintain, and then of course all those weekly tasks that you have to do if you want to adult properly in today’s society like grocery shop, laundry, dishes, etc.
However, I am happy to announce that it’s January 19th and I have manage to not only stay afloat this month, but to kinda kick ass well juggling a thousand and ten things. (Even if I need to take one or two days to hide in my bed)
So maybe I was right when the clock stuck midnight on January 1st marking the end of 2016 and the start of 2017 I was gifted with extra special super powers that have given me the chance to take on the world.
Or maybe, just maybe, when the clock marked the new year, I became 1 year wiser, 1 year stronger, and ready to complete 1 more year of goals (even if I am crawling under the weight of all the extra tasks I took on to achieve them).