Tonight I sit surrounded by textbooks, sticky notes, hand written notes, and a mass amount of online lectures. My brain is literally drowning in information that may or may not show up on Thursday’s midterm that’s worth 25% of my final grade. My eyes are watering, either from staring at all these words or because I am on the verge of an emotional breakdown – is it too late to drop out of school? My Google search bar is filled with topics like “how to get a good job without a degree?” and “how to completely wing a literary theory and criticism class and pass with a good grade?” Surprisingly enough though, this post isn’t about school or midterms or the overwhelming amount of stress that I am currently under – instead this blog post was inspired by the people in my life who constantly remind me to look at the bigger picture – my family.
For the last two and a half years my life has been a complete transition. I don’t have a steady place to live, my full time job is to be a student and although it seems like a piece of cake to everyone looking in – it is actually a pretty stressful responsibility, and I have been thrown a massive amount of curve balls lately. I’ve had people come into my life and than walk away without any explanation, I have dealt with broken bones and other injuries, I have taken on my responsibility of a future journalist and a Canadian citizen and actually kept up with what’s going on in the world and casted my opinion, and I’ve dealt with a hundred other things that teenagers deal with.
I heard that between the ages of 16 and 25 you meet a lot of temporary people in your life. You are constantly growing, changing, leaving people behind and getting left behind yourself. To be hard, blunt and obvious this is an unavoidable transition that comes with growing up and truly becoming an adult. And in my personal experience and personal opinion – it sucks.
However what I’ve come to truly realize is that you have a group of people who will never leave.
For the last two and a half years my relationship with my family has been inconsistent and lonely. I focused on myself – my priorities, my goals, my own personal battles. I let the most important people in my life drift away. But tonight, despite the personal responsibilities each and every one of us had, we drove from all different locations to meet in the middle.
For two hours I ignored all the schoolwork that was nagging at the back of my mind and I took in my most favourite people in the world – even if I never openly tell them that.
I looked at my sister who has overcome so many obstacles and always comes out stronger. Who is literally always smiling – every single time I’ve seen her and her happiness is contagious.
I looked at my brother who has changed so much in the last couple of years, but who will always be my biggest hero. Who is so opinionated and passionate in everything he talks about that it is truly inspiring.
I looked at my brother in law who has shown me how to be brave and courageous from the very first day I meet him. And who is just as important as both of my siblings who share the same genetic make-up as me.
And finally, I looked at my mom who constantly inspires me and encourages me on a daily bases. Who has always loved me unconditionally and taught me how to grow.
I might not ever get my entire family in the same room together again. I’ll never do another Christmas morning where the entire group is together, but that’s ok, because every chance I get to be with just one of my family members I know how lucky and loved I am and always will be.
So to my family, no matter how often we talk – or how much I tell you, I love you and am so thankful to have you all as my role models because you really do show me how wonderful life can be when I have all you guys in my corner.